I guess balance is the challenge.
Meditationary thoughts n shit.
Meditation time: 10 minutes
I was gone for a minute, now I'm back.
Lasted 8 minutes. 😣
Checked my email and Instagram and tried again. Lasted 5 minutes.
Imma try not to make this a Jack Handy lookin-ass/Drake writing-ass-blog but today I feel like it. My memory is short so lemme write a couple things that came to me as I focused on this breathing. In no particular order:
See, I forgot the first thing already. Shit!
Don't lay in temptation. Literally or figuratively. Mostly figuratively tho. 😎
I'm such a work in progress but I have to get a hold on these nerves.
I was supposed to focus on love and my breathing but that didn't happen. There's a mountain of other things floating around my brain.
Still haven't found one. From what my meditating homies tell me, its kind of important. A soundtrack would make focusing much easier than dead silence or my neighbors howling dog. Just like cleaning my crib or DRIVING is easier when music is playing I guess.
Anywho, I broke down like a simp and not a pimp while meditating. On a regular day I'm all "can't cry about what is and what what was so just k.i.m." And I'm old enough to recognize suppressing my undesirable feelings don't make them go away, they just get saved for later. Meditation is making me live in whatever I'm feeling at the moment. I still don't know how I feel about that. Never thought it would be so hard to practice my feelings and shit.
----"My heart don't pump no slushie" tho.
:-) BigBoi-Y'all scared
Can't say I have been keeping to my promise to myself to meditate @ least 3 Xs a week.... But everyday is brand new...like today. So let's get it! ...
But yeah, I been cussin at people in traffic again. This cussing thing is not conducive to my meditation tho. Lawdy, I need one vice......what's left? F that. I ain't quitting. Cussing cuts out verboseness so it is purposeful.
25 minutes rite now!